Finding someone you truly love is definitely hard, you end up putting yourself out there and getting crushed but love is worth the pain. Love is something that should be cherished and taken care of, because when you find love loosing it can be one of the most heart wrenching and painful experiences of your life.
The Beginning
I met my first love a 379 days ago. Our relationship was weird it started out when my younger sister R. met J., she went on a trip with her one of her good friends Moli and happened to meet some of Moli's family. J is Moli's cousin. Anyway to make things simple when my sister came home she told me all about J and explained to me how we were so alike and would be awesome friends. So my curiosity sent me searching, I looked J up on facebook and learned that he was a year ahead of me in school. I decided to make a bold move and add him, later after no friend confirmation I ended up sending him a simple message explaining that I was R's sister and was praying he didn't find me weird or creepy for adding him. I got an instant reply telling me he thought it was cute that I had added him and was excited to have a chance at having a friend when he comes to Texas to visit his cousin Moli. We ended up exchanging numbers and getting really close. I felt like he was someone I could truly speak my mind to, the problem was we had never met.
I don't know how many of you out there have tried long distance relationships without actually meeting the other person but it is extremely frustrating to not be able to be with them and terrifying when you are about to meet.
Back to the story.
J. told me he would be in town for a few days and he wanted to see me. I was extremely nervous about the whole thing I couldn't eat or sleep for days this guy just had me on edge and I barely knew him. So the day before J was to arrive in town R decides she wants to have a sleep over with Moli. The next day she calls me to come pick her up to take her home and I noticed a truck in the drive way I had never seen before. I was sitting in my car and my heart stopped I felt all the color drain out of my face and my hands started to shake, I looked in the mirror and pulled myself together to get out and go get my sister. As I walked up the drive way I saw a commotion going on in the house 2 people dragging someone else away, my sister popped out of the house and said "Lets go" with a sly look on her face. I headed to my car but before I knew it J flew out of the front doors and yelled "Hey!". I looked up at him and smiled, my whole body relaxed and everything was perfect a perfect, happy smile spread across his face as he hopped off the porch and ran across the lawn to tackle me. In that moment, when his arms wrapped around my body holding me close, I felt this overwhelming joy surge through me. I couldn't help but to look up at him to say hello back but before a word could come out of my mouth he stopped me with a kiss. A perfect, sweet kiss. What he said next I swear I will never forget, "You don't know how long I have wanted to do that." It was like I had died and been reborn into this happy perfect world where we spent every moment together.
to be continued...
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